“Wow.” Abigail sneered. “I don’t even know how women can be so…so loose.”
Sybil snickered. “Judgmental.”
“This is not being judgmental anything. As a woman, you should be focused on only one man.” Abigail hissed. “Then, you now can’t even be discreet about it.”
“What if her man is depriving her?”
“Of what? Sex? Women like this make all women look bad. In my language, we call them, barawo. Thief. Greedy thief!”
“Wow. Wow, Abigail.” Sybil laughed. “Take it easy.”
“I’m just so disgusted with this kind of woman who has no self-control.” Abigail threw her hands in the air. “Anyone care to read her thing, please do.”
Sybil smiled. “Toya, will you read?”
Toya closed her eyes for a long time. “I can’t.”
“Are you okay?” The other two ladies chorused.
“Back when I was a nurse and engaged to be married. There…I had a crush on another doctor, and my fiancé got to know,” Toya said softly.
Sybil frowned. “Do you want to talk about it?”
“She has to,” Abigail said. “I’m sorry about my harsh judgment on…on…”
“You are right. Every woman should know how to control their emotions.” Toya sighed. “I feel so ashamed.”
“Tell us what happened,” Sybil said slowly. “You know it helps to let it out.”
Toya sniffed. “I never told anyone. Not even Frank.”
The hospital we worked in was a psychiatric hospital, but it had a great infectious disease unit, so much so that many brought their cases even if those people had no psychiatric issues, and so it was always very busy. Dr. Teju Coker was one of the best infectious disease doctors around at the time and was always so busy.
We were madly in love. Or supposed to be. I worked with the drug addiction unit in the psychiatric wing, so we rarely saw each other at work, but once we’re off work, we are always together. Everyone thought we were a perfect couple. I thought so too, until somehow, and heaven knows I don’t know how it started, but this other doctor in my unit just started getting so close. Teju was the total package, and he loved me so much, and I loved him too, but though we were planning our wedding, I wasn’t always so happy around him. I fought those feelings, read books on them but the fire was just out.
On the other hand, I couldn’t wait to get to work. This other doctor even looked through catalogues with me. He liked what I liked while Teju and I argued about tastes especially for the things we wanted for our wedding.
One day, I was alone in the nurses’ room and this other doctor walked in. It was awkward. I walked into his arms and told him I was confused. It was just four days to my wedding. He told me he knew, and he had been thinking about me so much, he didn’t even know how he could watch me walk down the aisle with another man.
Two days later, Teju was walking through the ward in his unit, and a mad man stuck an injection in his neck. He died almost immediately. When I went to his house to help pack his things out, his parents wanted me to be there, I found a letter he wrote to me a week before he died, saying he knew I was in love with someone else but he had no intention of letting me go.
Toya sobbed. Abigail swatted tears away. Sybil slouched.
“Everyone thought I was grieving him. Yes, I was.” Toya hiccupped. “But more I hated myself and the fact that I let myself go like that. Teju and I were together for four years.”
Sybil exhaled. “What happened with the other doctor?”
“He disappeared into thin air. I never saw him again. He wasn’t at the burial.” Toya sniffed. “He just might never have existed, but I can never forget that day in the nurses’ room. I sold my soul.”
“Listen.” Abigail straightened. “That I think has happened to all of us, and again, I want to apologize for my insensitive words earlier. You were emotional with a man you…”
“We kissed in the nurses’ room that day.” Toya smirked. “I cheated on Teju. No nice way to put it.”
“I think we should read what the lady wrote on the blog.” Sybil shared her screen so the others could see the tale. “I’ll read.”
“No, Sybil. Maybe another day. But I think we can help Toya heal from this just as we can help any other person heal,” Abigail said.
Sybil nodded. “You’re right.”
“The first thing is to find someone to confide in.” Toya heaved a heavy sigh. “An accountability partner. There’s no way to get out of it on your own. Or should I say, it is tough.”
“Remember the things that first drew you to your man in the first place.”
“Pray. For yourself, for your relationship. Ask God to come and help you and deliver you.”
“You also know your guy. You may want to tell him, but with wisdom. And probably in the presence of someone else.”
“Someone he respects.”
The door opened in Toya’s room and Frank Odion walked in. Toya covered her face with her hands and wept.
He pulled Toya into his arms. “I’m sorry but I heard you sobbing so hard, I couldn’t help but eavesdrop.”
“Let us pray,” Sybil whispered.
CASE 8 – MY WOMAN WON’T TOUCH ME
“We don’t advise men.”